Just Another Quitter

Haven’t Quit Yet

Monica — Sun, 14 Jan 2007 20:28:53 +0000

But when I do, I want this up and running.

feel free to drop in at my personal blog: www.zyriana.com

First Day – again

Monica — Sat, 06 Jan 2007 23:48:08 +0000

I just wrote this long post and hit “publish” and it lost it. I’ll just make sure I keep hitting “save” along the way this time. Sheesh.

So here’s the skinny thus-far. I have to write it or I will forget.

November 24th, 2006 – December 23rd, 2006 – stopped smoking for ALMOST a month
December 24th, 2006 – bought cigs as I was having extreme emotional issues, and didn’t want to fight anymore – yes, caved. argh
December 24th, 2006 – January 5th, 2007 – smoked
January 5th 5:00 PM – January 6th 11:50 am – didn’t smoke
January 6th 11:50 – after DH (darling husband) left I immediately went outside and had a cig.
January 6th 11:50 AM to current – no smoke, and solidified my desire to quit

Thoughts:

First of all I noticed I did not prepare myself like I did last time. I spent a week before reading everything I could get my hands on, inundating myself with knowledge. Also, I spent the whole prior week reading through the forum on About.com so jumping in there when I quit was seemless and they helped me tremendously. I didn’t do that this time, as it looked like I was just playing around – so I stayed off the internet. Didn’t read. Etc.
Second, after the slip today came WAY too easilly – I fortified my resolve by creating a bit of a “sanctuary” out of my room like I did last time. Candles lit, all my STUFF in here should I decide I don’t have enough to do.
Thought of “what do I do when’s”. So that each craving will be handled without caving. One of the big one’s I’ve already used in just three hours was the hot tub. OMG. Cigs give you a kinda “calm down” when things are stressful, or the reward to caving into a craving. So I wondered what I could do to give me a refressing “calm down”. That came in the form of my hot tub. Beautiful day outside and I slipped into the 102 degree YUMMY hot tub. Oh yeah, now THAT’s a reward.
Drinking more water than I did the last time I did this. AND orange juice as well. It’s good! Oh, and took a vitamin that I was going to do the last time and didn’t. So I made some improvements over my last quit as well.

I’m nice and tired now. Gonna take a nap before the DH gets home - he’s supportive and I appreciate all he is doing.

Mon out

3 hours, 57 minutes and 34 seconds. 3 icky cigarettes not smoked, saving $0.95. Precious time of my life saved: 15 minutes.

Quit Date Coming Around the Corner

Monica — Mon, 01 Jan 2007 05:04:55 +0000

Friday is almost here. I’m getting nervous because I’m not as focused as I was last quit. Wednesday I’ll have the to do to be sure all is done. That way I have Thursday in case I need to get something.

Hateful Things

Monica — Fri, 29 Dec 2006 05:13:03 +0000

Some of the things I hate about smoking:

I stink
My mouth is dry
I have a headache
It makes me sick to my stomache
I am embarassed to smoke
It controls me
It makes my kids scared of my health
It makes me scared of my health
It’s so cold and windy outside and I go outside and freeze to smoke
I can’t smell much
My taste is not what it was a few weeks ago
I am going to go through those horrible withdrawls AGAIN!
Not smoking makes me cranky after I quit
My skin looks different
It makes me mad something controls me

Quitting Smoking

Monica — Thu, 28 Dec 2006 03:11:44 +0000

Interestingly I’ve been trying to quit for over 17 years. Not firmly I suppose or I would have been quit. But, I’ve hated it none the less.

This will be the area I use to journal what I am going through, or what I am going through or even future thoughts.

Love and Light to anyone who’s in the same group as me – a Quitter or one who is in the process of quitting.

I rely heavilly on an awesome support group online at About.com. I’ll post the link as soon as I get this journal runnin’.